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Tuesday, March 30th, 2004

Subject:been gone a long, long time . . .
Time:12:57 am.
Wow, I didn't realize how long I had been gone from this. I figured I should update after I saw J.j. had replied. Well let's see Lyssy will be three in June. She's this huge monster now lol j/k she's adorable with her curly blond lock's and blue eyes. She looks like an angel. I have a boyfriend or rather a fiance we've only been together eight almost nine months now so it will be a long engagement. My Mom's even happy I think well she sounded happy when I told her. I don't think I ever realized you could care about another person as much as I care for him without having given birth to them. I think that made sense. Oh well I have a new job as well it's going good so far and I really like it and all the people I work with are really nice which is a huge plus considering all the shitty jobs I've had this past year. well it's late and I'm tired hopefully I can remember to update this again soon but it's hard to when I don't have a computer at home anymore. well anyways. night all
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Friday, May 30th, 2003

Subject:Summer, birthdays and bags what more could a girl ask for . . .
Time:6:47 pm.
I have not updated in ages. well not alot has been going Alyssa is starting Gymboree and another tumbling class but I can't think of the name of it. Her second birthday is coming up very quickly, we're having a Winnie the Pooh party for her. She'll be happy as long as there's balloons. So far I think forty people are supposed to be coming it's gonna be so fun. I can't wait. Other then planning her party I haven't been doing much although I did manage to snag myself a date or two. heh I'm a geek I know. I haven't been shopping nearly as much although I did manage to acquire this it's gorgeous isn't it next on my list is this I'm also getting the matching wallet or wristlet rather. oh well I gotta go.
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Thursday, March 6th, 2003

Subject:my new icon . . .
Time:11:58 am.
I made a new icon of my little sweetie. that's my little girl she'll be two this year isn't she sweet.
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2003

Subject:Four days and counting . . .
Time:2:38 pm.
Mood: ecstatic.
We leave for Florida in only four days I am so excited. I looked up all these different places to go and things to do while we're down there. It's going to be so fun. We are thinking about going on a couple day trips down to the Bahamas I have always' wanted to visit the different Island's. We'll prolly go to Nassau that's the one I want to go to the most. UGH I had to order new shampoo, conditioner and face product's since I'm almost out but Kiehl's charge's ten extra dollars to three day everything so I think I'm gonna just run to Nordstrom's and pick it all up plus this way I get to smell all the different lotion's and I can pick a new one just for the trip. well I'm off I have a nail appointment to get a refill and then I have to schedule a facial before Sunday. Hopefully they have an opening.
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Sunday, February 16th, 2003

Time:12:45 am.
Crafting Tragedy
“The presence or movements of the civilian population or individual civilians shall not be used to render certain points or areas immune from military operations, in particular in attempts to shield military objectives from attacks or to shield, favour or impede military operations. The parties to the conflict shall not direct the movement of the civilian population or individual civilians in order to shield military objectives from attacks or to shield military operations.” – Protocol to the Geneva Conventions of 1949, Article 51


Based on what he has done in the past, if conflict with Iraq should occur, Saddam is almost certain to lay a trap for the world’s media. He apparently believes that dead Iraqi civilians are his most powerful weapon in trying to create revulsion against any military action that might occur against Iraq.


During Operation Desert Storm, the coalition chose its targets carefully and had strict rules of engagement intended to avoid bombing innocent civilians. Even with careful targeting, fire
discipline, and the well-known use of precision munitions in the campaign, some civilian casualties occurred. Saddam Hussein used deaths of innocent civilians to try to undermine international and domestic support for the American-led coalition, and the Iraqi regime made many claims that civilian targets had been hit by coalition air forces, with loss of innocent civilian lives.


The Iraqi regime’s propaganda campaign went far beyond normally-expected protests over
civilian casualties. The Iraqis quickly realized that placing military assets – including tanks, missiles, and command-and-control facilities – close to civilians and civilian infrastructure could yield substantial benefits. By shielding military assets with civilians and civilian infrastructure, Saddam understood that coalition forces would either avoid attacking targets close to civilians or risk severe political damage from unintended civilian deaths at what would have appeared to be a purely military site.


The co-location strategy has three objectives:
To conceal military assets;
To deter coalition attacks on military assets that could not be concealed; and
Failing the first two objectives, to capitalize on attacks by generating civilian casualties and
destruction of cultural sites.


Some of the regime’s co-locations were clearly detectable through overhead imagery. Those that
were not yielded tragic results – and a rich vein of propaganda. This is a long-standing practice:
Throughout the country, the Iraqi government continues to locate military assets close to or together with civilian facilities and cultural sites, and it continues to build new mosques and other civilian facilities in or near military areas.


Iraqi Co-Locations of Military and Civilians. Then…

CNN reporter Peter Arnett wrote that one night during the Gulf War a SCUD missile and launcher appeared on the front lawn of the Al-Rashid Hotel, where he and other journalists were staying.

In 1990, the international press widely reported that Iraq had held more than 1,000 Western and
Japanese men, women, and children as human shields at about 70 sites in Iraq, including air force bases, military garrisons, weapons factories, and power plants before eventually releasing them under international pressure.

During the Gulf War, the Iraqi regime placed two military aircraft next to the ancient Ur ziggurat
near Tallil, Iraq. A coalition strike on the aircraft could well have caused extensive damage to this ancient Mesopotamian cultural treasure.

When coalition leaders publicly stated that religious sites would not be targeted, Saddam began
using these sites to shield military equipment and units. In other cases, dual use facilities were
exploited for propaganda value.

On January 21, 1991, coalition bombers hit what the Iraqis claimed was a “baby milk factory” in
Baghdad. The United States insisted that Iraq was using it as a biological-weapons development
site. It appears the facility had briefly functioned as a “baby milk” factory in 1979 and 1980, and
then again in the spring and summer of 1990, before the Iraqi regime began to use it as a biological weapons site.

As U.S. officials pointed out at the time, the Iraqi regime was defending the site as it would a
military facility. After the Gulf War, UNSCOM inspectors discovered that three scientists from
the Iraqi regime’s main biological weapons facility had been assigned to the “baby milk” factory.


…And Now.

Since the Gulf War, the Iraqis regularly have placed Air Defense missile systems and associated
equipment in and around numerous civilian areas including parks, mosques, hospitals, hotels,
crowded shopping districts, ancient cultural and religious sites, and even cemeteries. They have
placed rocket launchers next to soccer stadiums that were in active use, parked operational SAM
systems in civilian industrial centers.

In late 1997, the Iraqi regime made sure the world media filmed Iraqi civilians, including women
and children, at military and industrial sites. The U.S. government later learned that it then
secretly replaced the civilians with prisoners, who were mostly opposition figures but also
included some criminals. If the sites had been attacked, the Iraqi regime was poised to claim that
any prisoners killed were the Iraqi civilians who had previously been there.

In April 2002, commercial satellite imagery showed that the Iraqis had constructed 15 military
revetments near a school in Saribadi, a town 31 miles southeast of Baghdad. Some of the revetments, essentially holes in which military vehicles are parked as protective measures against air strikes, are less than 11 yards from the wall surrounding the school.

In 2002, the United States government learned that the Iraqi government had ordered taxis and buses to be repainted with military colors in order to look like military vehicles.

On January 8, 2003, the Associated Press and others reported that Iraqi Deputy Prime Minister
Tareq Aziz welcomed foreign volunteers to come to Iraq and serve as human shields around
civilian facilities in the event of armed conflict, thereby planting the idea that civilian facilities
would be subject to attack. Iraq issued similar calls for volunteers in 1990. In the event of
conflict, such human shields would most likely be deployed around military targets – either to
deter strikes against the targets or to create casualties in the event of their being struck.
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Time:12:42 am.
Executive Summary


In December 1998, when U.N weapons inspector Dr. Richard Spertzel became exasperated by Iraqi evasions and misrepresentations, he confronted Dr. Rihab Taha, the woman the Iraqis identified as the head of their biological weapons program and asked her directly, “You know that we know you are lying. So why do you do it?” She straightened herself up and replied, “Dr. Spertzel, it’s not a lie when you are ordered to lie.”

Dr. Taha’s brief reply is one symbol of a highly developed, well disciplined, and expertly organized program designed to win support for the Iraqi regime through outright deceit. This elaborate program is one of the regime’s most potent weapons for advancing its political, military, and diplomatic objectives. In their disinformation and propaganda campaigns, the
Iraqis use elaborate ruses and obvious falsehoods, covert actions and false on-the-record statements, and sophisticated preparation and spontaneous exploitation of opportunities. Many of the techniques are not new, but this regime exploits them more aggressively and effectively – and to more harmful effect – than any other regime in power today.

In the weeks ahead, as the international community seeks to enforce UN Security Council resolutions and disarm the Iraqi regime, governments, the media, and the public are urged to consider the regime’s words, deeds, and images in light of this brutal record of deceit.

Apparatus of Lies discusses the lies that Iraq has used to promote its propaganda and disinformation in four broad categories:

Crafting Tragedy: To craft tragedy, the regime places civilians close to military equipment, facilities, and troops, which are legitimate targets in an armed conflict. The Iraqi regime openly used both Iraqis and foreigners as human shields during the Gulf War, eventually bowing to international pressure and releasing them. It has also placed military equipment
next to or inside mosques and ancient cultural treasures. Finally, it has deliberately damaged
facilities and attributed the damage to coalition bombing and has attempted to pass off damage from natural catastrophes, such as earthquakes, as the result of bombing.

Exploiting Suffering: To exploit suffering, Saddam blames starvation and medical crises – often of his own making – on the United Nations or the United States and its allies. This is such an effective ruse that the Iraqi regime actually causes or actively ignores hardship and then aggressively exploits the Iraqi people’s suffering. For the last few years, the Iraqis have aggressively promoted the false notion that depleted uranium – a substance that is relatively
harmless and was used for armor-piercing munitions during the Gulf War – has caused cancers and birth defects among Iraqis. Scientific evidence indicates that any elevated rates of cancer and birth defects are most likely due to Iraqi use of chemical weapons.

Exploiting Islam: Experts know that Saddam Hussein is a non-religious man from a secular – even atheistic – party. But to exploit Islamic sentiments, he adopts expressions of faith in his public pronouncements, and the Iraqi propaganda apparatus erects billboards and
distributes images showing him praying or in other acts of piety – all while the regime prevents pilgrims from making the Hajj. The regime also has made many false claims designed to incite Muslims against its adversaries.

Corrupting the Public Record: To corrupt the public record, the regime uses acombination of on-the-record lies, covert placements of false news accounts, self-inflicted damage, forgeries, and fake interviews.

The Iraqi regime uses several tools in various combinations to disseminate false information and
images in the expectation that supporters and commentators will cause it to reverberate through
the media. Many of these falsehoods die quickly, but even the most implausible claims can find believers or at least a permanent home in the public record. Under certain circumstances, some will gain vigor and continue to be repeated and grow, even after they have been proven false.

The Iraqis have adapted and varied their mix of themes and techniques over the years, depending on the situation, and they have quickly seized new opportunities to spread false information. Iraq’s disinformation effort is serious and sophisticated. The regime commits substantial resources to this effort and has achieved some remarkable successes.


Main Tools of Iraqi Disinformation
Staged suffering and grief
Co-location of military assets and civilians
Restricting journalists’ movements
False claims or disclosures
False man-in-the-street interviews
Self-inflicted damage
On-the-record lies
Covert dissemination of false stories
Censorship
Bogus, edited, or old footage and images
Fabricated documents


An important priority of Saddam’s deception apparatus is to manipulate the televised images the world sees. This is accomplished by controlling the movements of foreign journalists, monitoring and censoring news transmissions, disseminating old or fake footage, and carefully staging events or scenes. The regime’s most cynical strategy is to actually cause severe civilian hardship or even deaths and then exploit the Iraqi people’s suffering by placing the blame on UN-imposed
sanctions or other nations.

Recent U.S. government reports, including A Decade of Defiance and Deception, have documented Saddam’s deceit regarding UN resolutions and weapons inspections. In order to raise awareness of many of the regime’s other forms of deception, particularly those likely to be repeated, Apparatus of Lies examines the facts behind Iraqi disinformation and propaganda since 1990. Given the nature and history of the regime, evidence of further deception is almost certain to come to light.
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Time:12:41 am.
Main Tools of Iraqi Disinformation
· Staged suffering and grief
· Co-location of military assets and civilians
· Restricting journalists’ movements
· False claims or disclosures
· False man-in-the-street interviews
· Self-inflicted damage
· On-the-record lies
· Covert dissemination of false stories
· Censorship
· Bogus, edited, or old footage and images
· Fabricated documents
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Time:12:40 am.
The Amiriyah Bunker-Shelter

In the early morning hours of February 13, 1991, coalition precision-guided bombs hit the Amiriyah
bunker in Baghdad. Television networks broadcast gruesome footage of charred bodies being removed
from the building. Iraq reported over 300 deaths, mostly women and children.

The bunker was originally constructed as an air raid shelter during the Iran-Iraq War, and later
converted into a military command-and-control center. In 1991, it was used as a military communications center, complete with barbed wire, camouflage, and armed guards. Intelligence sources reported senior Iraqi military officials were using it for military communications.

Iraq claimed it was a civilian air raid shelter that had been deliberately bombed. Unknown to the
coalition was that selected civilians had been admitted to the top floor at night, while the Iraqi
military continued to use the lower level as a command-and-control center. In an article in the February 14, 1991, edition of Finland’s Helsingin Sanomat, a Finnish expert confirmed that structures in Iraq like the Amiriyah had two stories and space for a total of 1,500 people. The Finnish firm Perusyhtyma and the Swedish company ABV had built 30 of these structures in
Baghdad.

Khidir Hamza, former director general of Iraq’s nuclear weapons program, stated in his book,
Saddam’s Bomb maker, that during the Gulf War:

“We sought refuge several times at the [Amiriyah] shelter…. But it was always filled…. The shelter had television sets, drinking fountains, its own electrical generator, and looked sturdy enough to withstand a hit from conventional weapons. But I stopped trying to get in one night after noticing some long black limousines slithering in and out of an underground gate in the back. I asked around and was told that it was a command center. After considering it more closely, I decided it was probably Saddam’s own operational base.”

The United States government soon learned that Saddam Hussein had decreed that, from then on, all Iraq’s military bunkers would also house civilians.
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Time:12:38 am.
Exploiting Suffering

The Iraqi regime is skilled at seizing – and creating –opportunities to undermine the international community’s resolve to maintain UN sanctions. And one of its most effective tools for accomplishing this goal is the systematic creation of hardship and suffering for the Iraqi people. While devoting massive resources to opulent palaces and huge weapons programs, the Iraqi government makes food and medicine scarce for average citizens. It then shifts the blame
for the suffering of the Iraqi people from Saddam’s policies to the United Nations, which established the sanctions. The real reasons for the suffering are quickly overwhelmed by the emotional weight of crying or emaciated children, doctors lamenting the lack of medicines and supplies, and parents pleading for relief.

Saddam Hussein’s government uses tragic images to influence world opinion, and particularly to support the false allegation that the United Nations is killing Iraqis. These images include:

Exploiting sick and malnourished children for international television cameras;
Staging mass funerals;
Providing selective tours of empty markets and dilapidated hospitals;
Showing Iraqis with obvious diseases and blaming the sicknesses on the absence of modern medical tools, due to sanctions; and
Censoring television footage and restricting movement of journalists and television crews.

In a particularly shocking practice, the regime is known to collect the bodies of dead babies and store them for months at a time, so that they can stage mass funeral processions and create the impression that UN sanctions are killing small children.

The Iraqi regime has diverted to its weapons program or to luxuries for the regime’s elites many millions of dollars that were intended for food, medicines, and other necessities. Under the UN sanctions exceptions, Iraq is explicitly allowed to import food and a wide range of medicines and other necessities, and the UN Security Council has expanded the list of allowable items several times in response to humanitarian and infrastructure needs. The regime either deliberately caused medical scarcity and malnutrition or simply saw that the suffering of the Iraqi people caused by
its policies could be exploited for its propaganda value.

In either case, weapons for the armed forces and luxuries for ruling elites took priority over food
and medicines for the people, and the regime found it more useful to continue the hardships and blame them on the sanctions than to meet its obligations and end the suffering. In 2000, Forbes magazine estimated Saddam Hussein’s personal wealth at $7 billion, acquired primarily from oil and smuggling.
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Time:12:37 am.
Blaming Sanctions for Regime Failure

In a total of 29 separate resolutions,6 the UN Security Council has stated clearly its reason for
imposing sanctions: to force Iraq to comply with previous UN resolutions. But Saddam Hussein refuses to comply. In 1990, under UN Security Council Resolution 661, the UN permitted food and medicine imports. Beginning in 1991, the Security Council attempted to create an Oil-for-Food Program that would allow Iraqi oil to be sold, with proceeds deposited in an UN-controlled account and used to purchase food, medicine, and humanitarian goods for the Iraqi people.
The Iraqi government rejected this proposal.

In 1995, over Iraq’s protests, the Security Council adopted another oil-for-food resolution.8 It was only in 1996, after another year and a half of Iraqi delays and international pressure, that the Iraqi regime finally agreed to accept oil-for-food, allowing the first imports to arrive in 1997. Even after the program was in place, the regime continued to deprive its citizens of the food and medical commodities that the international community wanted to supply. In 22 subsequent resolutions the Security Council extended, revised, adjusted, or expanded the Oil-for-Food
Program out of concern for the people of Iraq, consistently broadening the range of goods permitted for importation.

Iraq claims that 1.7 million children, including 700,000 under the age of five, out of a total national population of 22 million people, have died because of sanctions. According to an Iraqi government web site, after the Oil-for-Food Program was instituted the number of children who died before the age of five jumped 50 percent from 1996 to 2001. The facts tell a different story:

Under the Oil-for-Food Program, the Iraqi regime exported food to earn hard currency it could use for its own purposes. Infant formula sold to Iraq under the Oil-for-Food Program has been found in markets throughout the Gulf, presumably exported by the
regime to circumvent the sanctions.

According to the UN, under the Oil-for-Food Program the daily food ration in Iraq rose from about 1,200 kilo calories per day in 1996 to over 2,200 kilo calories per day in August 2002.

Iraq therefore implausibly claims that child mortality soared while the average caloric intake for Iraqis increased by 80 percent, and while medical supplies were becoming more plentiful.

High-ranking regime loyalists receive the most expensive medical care, including heart bypass surgery and neurosurgery using an ultra-modern, $6 million gamma knife, while basic medicines are in short supply for the Iraqi people.

Since the Gulf War, Saddam Hussein has spent more than $2 billion building 48 new palaces, some complete with gold-plated faucets and artificial waterfalls on their grounds.

How much food does $2 billion buy for hungry people? In 2001, the World Food Program spent $1.74 billion to deliver 660,000 metric tons of food to 77 million people worldwide.
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Time:12:36 am.
Baby Funerals
“Small coffins, decorated with grisly photographs of dead babies and their ages – ‘three days’,
‘four days’, written usefully for the English-speaking media – are paraded through the streets of
Baghdad on the roofs of taxis, the procession led by a throng of official mourners.”
– The Observer (London)


People the world over are moved by the suffering and deaths of innocent children, and where
possible, the Iraqi regime attempts to link images of child deaths to the policies and actions of its
adversaries. They have blamed thousands of child deaths on United Nations sanctions, not the
Iraqi regime’s policies that caused those sanctions. They also claimed that exposure to depleted
uranium from spent munitions used in the Gulf War had caused many deaths and deformities in
children. To support these claims, they have staged mass children’s funerals, and to stage those
funerals, they need dead children. There is only one problem, according to defectors, journalists,
and participants in these funerals: To have enough children’s remains to make a proper show, the
regime has to collect and store them.

A BBC Correspondent documentary aired on June 23, 2002, exposed how the Iraqi regime
staged these processions: Instead of burying dead children immediately in accordance with
Muslim custom, Iraqi authorities hold the bodies in cold storage until enough bodies are
available to conduct a “parade of dead babies.”15 In one such event, the Iraqi regime exhibited
some 60 coffins, decorated with large photographs of the deceased, around Martyr Square in Baghdad while government-controlled demonstrators chanted anti-U.S. slogans and demanded the elimination of UN sanctions, all for the benefit of foreign reporters who were present.

On camera, an Iraqi identified as Ali, described as a former member of Saddam’s inner circle living in northern Iraq, related the account of a taxi driver who had explained to him how it worked: “He went to Najaf [a town 100 miles south of Baghdad] a couple of days ago. He brought back two bodies of children for one of the mass funerals.”

Ali continued: “The smell was incredibly strong. He didn't know how long they'd been in storage, perhaps six or seven months. The drivers would collect them from the regions. They would be informed of when a mass funeral was arranged so they would be ready. Certainly, they would collect bodies of children who had died months before and been held for the mass
processions.”

In a separate article, the program’s host reported, “A second, Western source went to visit a Baghdad hospital and, when the official Iraqi minder was absent, was taken to the mortuary. There, a doctor showed the source a number of dead babies lying stacked in the mortuary, waiting for the next official procession.”
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Monday, February 10th, 2003

Subject:wow it's been forever . . .
Time:8:12 pm.
I haven't updated in forever so far things are going very well. I'll leave it at that no jinxes. We have vacation coming up next month and I am so excited I'm ready to go right now. Other then that things are rather boring. Went to see Darkness Falls and How to lose a guy in ten days both were good How to lose a guy was better it was just an adorable movie. I love Kate Hudson she so cute. Tomorrow is Alyssa's first tumbling class it's just a trial one though I want to try out a couple different classes to see which one is the right one. Hopefully she likes them. oh well I gotta go it's her bath time.
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Friday, January 3rd, 2003

Subject:he just might be perfect . . .
Time:11:25 pm.
I've met someone . . . he's gorgeous and amazing and I'm already further gone then I should be . . . somebody pinch me because I think I'm dreaming . . .
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Friday, December 27th, 2002

Subject:Christmas comes once a year but for me it's everyday . . .
Time:11:51 am.
Mood: jubilant.
well let's see Poppy, Alyssa and I decided to stay home Christmas eve and have a family Christmas this year I made this amazing dinner for all of us and fixed up the table and everything then I put Alyssa to sleep and I put together her little vanity table before going to bed . . . She didn't even wake up till almost nine thirty which gave me time to take a shower and get dressed and get all her presents set up around the tree . . . so I carry her downstairs and she sees the tree and all the presents and make that little oo face and points at the tree then she proceeds to walk over to her vanity and played with that all morning while I tried to coax her over to the rest of the presents which I ended up opening for her . . . then we left and went over to Mom's and opened gifts there which was almost one hundred percent toys for Alyssa and I got everything I asked for including a new stereo for my room, candles, CD's, dvd's including Sex and the City Season 1 and 3 YaY finally, she also got me the most beautiful sapphire and diamond pendant from the same place she got her gorgeous diamond ring oh I'm so in love with it we just have to get a new chain for it, the chain it came with is very delicate and I'm afraid one good tug from Alyssa and it's going to break I also got gift certificate's to get a facial and a rebalence and a pedicure and a haircut but it sucks because the haircut certificate isn't for my regular salon it's for Robert Andrews and I'm not sure I trust anyone but Jean Paul with my hair plus I haven't seen him in a month and I miss him he is so freaking adorable there aren't even words to describe him well anyway I also got a gift certificate to Hecht's for new make-up or whatever from Poppy and he got me a bunch of dvd's and he's getting me something else after Christmas it's going to be a surprise and my Mom said she'd take me to look at a new computer since mine is a piece of junk so hopefully I'll get a new one soon. . . I think that's pretty much everything . . . well we had a lovely Christmas not just present wise but people wise too . . . it was very peaceful . . . hopefully next year will be the same . . .
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Monday, December 16th, 2002

Subject:and here I thought I was having the time of my life . . .
Time:12:02 am.
Mood: confused.
god why does it have to be so damn confusing one minute it's friendly and casual the next minute it's a gown and maids it's just so fast . . . with him it's genuine smiles and laughter but in an instant it can be the screams and the fighting I'm not ready to go through all that again I'm not ready to be some ones punching bag again . . . I need to take a breather I need to step back and redirect . . . I really need a damn vacation
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Sunday, December 15th, 2002

Subject:mmmm life doesn't get much better then this. . .
Time:2:57 pm.
Mood:Christmas.
well I have officially bought everything an eighteen month old could possibly need, or desire my mom finally found the computer toy for her and of course she finds it in the shopping capital of the east coast New York thank god she found it I have been looking for it since last Christmas but every store has been sold out. . . I ordered her Christmas dress today and a few other outfits she prolly doesn't need but were too adorable not to get and I got some of them on sale so I don't feel to awful. . . I got her these crayons to use in the tub and a new bath robe since she grew out of her old one . . . I think I got her every single care bear they have out right now and I found Rainbow Brite and the Star Stealer for her which is awesome cuz I adore that movie it was one of my favorites as a kid. . . plus a bunch of cute little books she didn't have and a lot of other stuff I just don't feel like listing it all . . . I have no clue what I want myself though ugh I think I have run out of things I need or want I have my adorable KS bag I got that for my birthday I got two different perfumes for my birthday as well along with a complete line of skin products and a Digital Camera maybe I should ask for a 35 mm one now and maybe find another perfume I like ohh I also found this gorgeous necklace at the Jewelry Store in the mall with the security guards I can't remember it's name it's German. . . and I should ask for some DVD's I don't have yet and some I have let people borrow that I will probably never see again. . . well I'm off to finish up some shopping.
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Saturday, December 7th, 2002

Subject:OMG
Time:12:06 am.
on the new season of Sex and the City when Aiden and Carrie are fighting in the bathroom of her apartment about all his shit everywhere and Aiden's dog chews on Carrie's cirque 1996 shoe and I notice she has the exact conditioner in her shower as I use. Isn't that cute.
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Thursday, November 28th, 2002

Subject:to anyone who cares. . .
Time:10:50 pm.
Taylor and Natalie had their baby Jordan Ezra.
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Saturday, November 9th, 2002

Subject:hmm now where was I . . .
Time:8:02 pm.
I have not updated in forever I've just been busy. I had my birthday on October 14th the big 22 oh yeah well not so oh yeah considering I didn't do anything special. Poppy, Alyssa and I went to Nags Head for the week and stayed in the most amazing house it was sound front so we got to see such beautiful sunsets every night we basically just lounged around for the week. We also went out to dinner and went shopping a bunch of times. My aunt came down wednesday and she and I went to see the movie the Ring saturday night OMG was it scary I couldn't even sleep that night. Well when I got back the next weekend my Mom had a birthday party for me. I got so much stuff I was in Heaven. I got two of the major things I asked for which were the Kate Spade bag and the Digital Camera. I also got a ton of Make-Up two yummy perfume's all these different face cleansers, moisturizers, and other things from Origins and this gorgeous hurricane lamp from Pier One that I fell in love with a few weeks ago. I also ended up getting my hair done too. Jean Paul gave me so many hi-lights I have to get low-lights next time so I'm not a total blond. Oh well it looks cute. He's so adorable I swear I'm gonna marry him. Poppy is in Mexico at the moment having a ball I'm sure I am so jealous but we are going to Hawaii in the spring so I can't be to jealous. We might go to Florida to but we're not sure yet. oh well I guess that's it. I'll try to update more often.
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Thursday, October 10th, 2002

Time:2:44 pm.
1) Single or Taken: single
2) Sex: female
3) Birthday: October 14th
4) Sign: Libra
5) Siblings: Colleen 12, Shayne 8, A.J. 8 and Denny 2
6) Hair color: Brunette with Blonde Highlights
7) Eye color: Blue with flecks of green
8) Shoe size/height: hmm 8 1/2 or 9

*-;-* R e l a t i o n s h i p s~*
1) Who are your best friends? I don't have one
2) Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? Nope

*-;-*F a s h i o n S t u f f *-;-*
1) Where is your favorite place to shop? Hechts, Nordstrom, H&M
2) Any tattoos or piercings: My Tongue and a Rose design on the small of my back

*-;-* T h e E x t r a S t u f f
1) Do you do drugs: Used to but it turns out they screw up your brain
2) What kind of shampoo do you use: Alterna
3) What are you most scared of: Being Eaten bt a Shark or Zombies(don't ask)
4) What are you listening to right now: The Pitter Patter of Raindrops
5) What vehicle do you wish to have? A Lexus RX300
6.) Who is the last person that called you: My Mom
7.)where do you want to get married: On a secluded tropical Beach
8) How many messenger buddies do you have on right now: none it's not up at the moment
9) If you could change anything about yourself, what would it be? Hmm not be so noisy, be more active, I think that's it.

*-;-* F a v o r I t e s *-;-*
1) Color: Purple
2) Whats your fav. food? Chicken Salad Subs
4) Boy's names: Justin Taylor
5) Girls names: Alyssa Gabrielle heh
6) Subjects in school: Psychology
7) Animals: Horses or Dogs
8) Sports: Hockey and Basketball

-;-* H a v e Y o u E v e r
1) Given anyone a bath: Kind of I had a girl at a party get so drunk we thought she had alcohol poisoning so we had to take off her clothes and basically dunk her in cold water to shock her system.
2) Smoked: used to thank god I quit what a disgusting habit
3) Bungee jumped: nah
4)Broken the law: Yup
5) Made yourself throw-up: Once or twice when I was sick and knew I had to to make myself feel better
6.)went skinny dipping? once but was too shy to take everything off
7. Ever been in love: I think so
8) Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? Not purposely

What C o m e s T o M i n d *-;-*

1)Red: Lipstick and Roses
2)Cow tipping: The Farm
3) Socks: Warm Feet
4) Greenland: A little island with lots of grass

w h a t ' s w o r s e ?*~-;-~*

1) Barfing on your date or your date barfing on you? Eww neither

*-;-* F i n a l Q u e s t i o n s *-;-*
1) Do you like filling these out: when I'm bored
4) Gold or Silver: Gold
5) What is the last film you saw at the movies: Sweet Home Alabama
6) Favorite cartoon character: The Smurfs
7) What do you have for breakfast in the morning: A Cinnamon Roll Three Sausages and Two pieces of Bacon
8) Who would you hate being locked in a room with: Hmm I dunno I could prolly deal with anyone
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